Dreaming of him I saw his face

As I cried out of my sleep

Into a morning storm

And I texted my sister

And asked what was happening

And she confirmed what I felt to be true

His passing passed over me like a ghost

As I had prayed to god and the universe to take away his pain

Send me his suffering instead

For he could not sleep for three long and terrible nights

Restless and pacing 

His head aching and looking for a corner and crevice

To escape the pain that attached to him

Like a dark shadow

When I was with him I tried to stroke it away

And finally god and the universe answered my prayers

And set him free, sending the pain to me

And the pain inside me grew

And now swallows me whole like a whale swallows the ocean

When I greeted his body it was still warm

But he was a shell growing rigid and cold

And now I am in a cage of restlessness

And grief