It isn’t that she is bipolar, it just seems that way. One moment she is singing in the rain and as happy as a songbird, next minute she is silent and depressed under a Trumpism national state of oppression. It’s not so much that she is even depressed, but more pensive about ideas of melancholy or melancholic about the state of her pensiveness. Maybe it’s just that she thinks too much about everything and nothing in particular, and her mood just happens to sway where her mind wanders whether that be in the light or in the dark. No, it’s not that she is bipolar or that she has multiple personalities all with the same name, or can it be? What does it mean to feel the push and pull of your own polarity, acting as a magnet sticking to yourself as you try so hard to run away? And what is it, that she is running away from? Nonsense has filled the ether between the poles. As long as there is motion the center will disappear. You cannot hold down the nucleus of an atom unless you pin down the idea of god. Unless you equate that god with good, and that good with love, then just, maybe you can pin it down, but then what? What does god or good matter when your endgame is to deflect into distractions and digression and the nonsense that has filled the air? When she smiles it isn’t that she is happy, but just seems that way. When she frowns it isn’t that she is sad, but has momentarily forgotten happiness, and as swift it is for a weed to sway in the breeze, that feeling is gone. Red, neutral, or blue, our independence is just an allusion to an the idea of freedom trapped in a moment.
Her high school physics teacher, Mr. Murray, would scatter nonsense to the students and in that nonsense she still hears,
“An ohm is a resistance found in a column of mercury 103.6 cm long with a cross sectional one mm squared at zero degrees Celsius.”
What does it mean to live within the resistance as we face a world today where America’s administrators deny the Truth in Science? And why must they persuade the sheep off a cliff into the fiery pit of ignorance?